Plus Size is still Sexy!

This last year has been a wonderful journey for me. I've matured both emotionally and mentally and have grown spiritually wise. I have also had a few personal struggles, biggest one being my weight. During the course of this last year, I started a secret affair, with FOOD! I'm ready to come out of the pantry and admit, "I am a midnight bingeaholic!" I'm not a big snacker or junk food eater but late at night, when the house is quietly sleeping, I creep into the kitchen like a teenager trying to sneak out of the house, and I binge on anything I can find that's of interest. My tongue develops this sensational high and I need to have a full balance of savory, fruity, salty and sweet. Before I know it, I'm on a foodgasm high and loving every minute of it. The next morning, I wake with signs of the previous night's rampage and run to the restroom to destroy all evidence. It's like a killer covered in scratches and blood only I'm covered in crumbs and food stains! Soon, the guilt sets in and I head over to the scale. Yup, damage! For months, this mental food frack has controlled everything from my self esteem to my lack of caring if my nails were polished or if I put on jewelry. 
I was growing into this beautiful human being, I was growing closer to God, I was growing, period.

As many of our friends and family know, I am life and love committed to the most handsome and incredible person I've ever met, my Andi. It is she that smiles and looks into my eyes each morning and says "Good morning beautiful" during the day she asks, "Have I told you how pretty you look today?". Her tiger like hunger for intimacy makes me question, "Why? How can she still be attracted to me?" It is through her consistency and unwavering attraction in her eyes that I recently started to see in the mirror what she was looking at all along. 

I may be 40 lbs heavier then I was last year but I am still just as beautiful and sexy as a woman. My confidence and self esteem slowly started to make it's way back and little by little I started to take that extra care again. I guess after awhile, you get tired of taking 20 selfies before you find just the right one that portrays who you really AREN'T. Got tired of trying to suck in my stomach or hold the phone up to the ceiling and angle down on my face to get the "Perfect face pic". No more sucking in my cheeks to look thinner (well maybe I'll still do that one from time to time), but in letting go, I found myself just overall liking who I am again. 

Magazines, TV and Society in general glamorize and sensationalize being thin and even underweight. You realize the camera adds 10 pounds right? Can you imagine how much thinner these super models and actors are OFF camera? I am not saying there is anything wrong with being thin as long as you are healthy but wheres the Kudos for the Big Sexy Women? We too, can bring on the sexy. Tonight, I feel a lil flirty and that's alllllright. Please feel free to share your confidence as well.

Pictures posted below are approved by my love and slightly cropped only because we have some rescue dogs and didn't feel like having them in the photo shoot lol

Happy Sexy Saturday!!